this is walking on water

you can plan your life as much as you want. But there will be times that another path you were not expecting will open up, and you have to make a decision whether to take it or not. Sometimes, you'll do great, sometimes you will fail, but that is a part of it all. My life did not go as i planned it, but with hard work and a positive attitude, I ended up where I am now. And I'd like to think I didn't do so bad.
--bianca gonzales

life, after all, is fair. it hands everyone a battle to face. you can do what you want with it- complain, act like you don't care, give up or fight. for a long time, i chose to hide in a corner, pity myself and ask and wait for things i don't like to go away. only recently (like a few minutes ago) did it hit me. it was me who was being unfair. yes, i am beautiful, but still, life cannot excempt me. it will hand down what it needs to hand down. people around me are fighting. my parents, my sister, my leader, my pastors, my co-12s, my disciples- everyone is fighting to pass the test. everybody experiences failure, pain, frustrations, and confusion. most have it worse than i do. but they continued. i stayed under a pomegranate tree, wasted precious time. amazingly, my rants overpower theirs.

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time to shut up, stand up and fight alongside them. time to rise up to the challenge and deliver.