goodbye steve

Steve Jobs Resigns As CEO Of Apple

Title says it all. More to come. For now, the letter from Steve Jobs himself:

To the Apple Board of Directors and the Apple Community:
I have always said if there ever came a day when I could no longer meet my duties and expectations as Apple’s CEO, I would be the first to let you know. Unfortunately, that day has come.
I hereby resign as CEO of Apple. I would like to serve, if the Board sees fit, as Chairman of the Board, director and Apple employee.
As far as my successor goes, I strongly recommend that we execute our succession plan and name Tim Cook as CEO of Apple.
I believe Apple’s brightest and most innovative days are ahead of it. And I look forward to watching and contributing to its success in a new role.
I have made some of the best friends of my life at Apple, and I thank you all for the many years of being able to work alongside you.
Steve

Update: Apple has confirmed that Apple COO Tim Cook will replace Jobs as CEO, following Jobs’ own recommendation. Considering that Cook has filled in for Jobs in the times of his medical leaves (including the one he has been on this year), this has been widely expected if and when it came time for Jobs to step down.
Also as requested, Jobs has been elected as Chairman of the Board and will remain with the company in that capacity. Cook will join the Board as well.

article taken from techcrunch.com

who would even think of resigning when you're seemingly at the peak of your career? this dude just released the iPad. few months later, he resigns. try to figure out how his brain cells work. but crazy as it may seem, i believe he made the right decision. he's steve jobs after all. to me though, he's not apple's big man. he's someone who delivered this simple speech that inspired me big time.

 "you can't connect the dots looking forward, you can only connect them looking backwards. you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. you have to trust in something. gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever."

"sometimes life's gonna hit you in the head with a brick. don't lose faith."

"i am convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that i loved what i did. you've got to find what you love. and that is as true for work, as it is for your lovers."

"as with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it."

"remembering that i'll be dead soon is the most important tool i've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important."

tama ng melan!

果敢なき夢を撃て　孤独よ自爆せよ

Fire off your fleeting dreams

SELF DESTRUCT THE LONELINESS.

--Zero, AAA

detour

Never lose sight of what is important.

and it is not you. it is the people around you- the people you love and the people who love you. they may never love you the way you expect them to, but it doesn't mean they don't. 

most of the time, we forget. we tend to bury ourselves in our own worlds which is compromised of the things we want,the things that make us happy, and the things that we wish to happen. we end up rejecting those who are reaching out to us, hiding and manipulating.  it's easier and more comfortable that way because it is something we can handle and control. it serves as a shelter, protecting us from frustrations, disappointments and pain. it never requires anything but time, lots and lots of time; time which we should have spent in reality instead. 

so what if you cannot escape? so what if the path ahead is too hard even to imagine?  do not run away. you can never get out of what is real. besides, the people who are important live and breathe in the reality you are running away from. so you'll get hurt. yes. it's a given. but beyond the hurt is love and happiness. it's crazy but you cannot live in a world that is comprised of only love and happiness. somehow, hurt goes with these two. maybe it's because hurt is what makes them shine. it's the rain that makes the rainbow appear.


fight for the people you cherish and the people who cherish you.
-kumiko yamaguchi, Gokusen

enough is enough. I'm going back.

i woke up early and excited. according to today's schedule, i should be doing my thesis experiment corrections. i even went to trinoma last night in search for asparagus so that i could really start today. i was singing the whole morning, stopping only when there is somebody for me to greet and hug (the housemates). i ate my fave pancakes at Mcdo with the excuse that i need all the energy i could get for today's come back. all the positivity in the world is in me- that was how it all began.

step 1

Karen

plus


Buko Pandan

equals

trouble shooting thesis

daz wa you call movement baby!

hajime!

i have dreams. and i've realized it really is possible to meet them. i can do all things through christ who strengthens me! :) so, what am i waiting for? i set my pace. so better stop slacking around and do things that will actually lead me to where i am supposed to be.

as for completing my 12, i've decided to meet each of my prospects this week. i already completed my list. i also determined their status and the appropriate movement for each of them. but of course, it can't be published here. hehe. for today, i met with queenie and angelica. as always. i forgot to take a picture. anyway, this is a good start. angelica already received the gift she's been waiting for so long. i'm one happy discipler baby :)

later that night, we went to the 144/ cls meeting. emphasis on being a model. getting this message two days in a row now is really disturbing. hehe.

the promised elaboration

what i've gotten myself into is serious business.

dude, it's G12.

Apparently, it's not just gathering 12 people and making them your gang, sticking together through thick and thin. that's touching but that's not it. yes, it's a barkada but the thing is, it's not just a barkada, it's also a team. Barkada = fun. Team = goals. so you get the idea. we don't just chill. we move. G12 is a  movement. without movement, it's not the same thing.

also, G12 is a model. as their leader, you model. you can't just say it. you have to show it.  therefore, there's no way but to really fix your character and your life in general, every single tiny icky little bit of it. they won't learn if you won't. their growth depends on your growth. their depth depends on your depth.  12 people are depending on you. 12 lives are intertwined with yours. now that's something you cannot risk. that's something you can't just play around with.

there's a decision to be made: to continue or not?

i was positioned here. god definitely has a plan. his guy, einstein once said that He does not play with the universe. and i believe he's right. god does not seem to be the type who plays around. for some reason, he wants me here. the only problem now is my free will. do i want his plan? honestly, there are times when i don't want it. it's such a big responsibility. but wisdom tells me otherwise. 

i make the call. my emotions or my future? a lot of times i've exchanged my birthright for a bowl of soup. a lot of times i've heeded my emotions. a lot of times i did not trust his plan. where it got me- six feet under. it really is an obvious answer. i'm just making things complicated. 

i have to make a decision, be firm in it and follow through.

happy hectic sunday

leaving is such a sweet sorrow.

sundays are like this. i leave home with all its comforts and head back to my battlefield. as i wake up (which does not really happen since i never really sleep on saturday nights), my brain cells are already debating. to go or not to go. so far, the to go party has always brought home the bacon. the not to go party never fails to put up a good fight though. i'm afraid they might actually win one day.
the sad parts: leaving behind the food, free net usage, ghost friends and my bed. fine, my sister too.
the saddest part: when i say goodbye to my father :( he drives me to the terminal.

howell papel. there's nothing i could do about it. i chose a battlefield away from home. nobody pushed me to. that was my decision. now i have no one to blame. moving on.

my seatmate's bear 

my seatmate had this huge bear. i am not really a bear fan. but i want one like this just because it is soooo big. even if i am not sure if it is good to ask for this because of my limited bed space, this is definitely another item on my wish list! :)

 

NLEX

i love travelling. this is one of the things i enjoyed the most when i was still studying in Baguio.all that greens, blues, and whites never fail to make me happy. i especially love the clouds. like my bed space, i also have limited imagination too. haha. i can't see figures in the clouds like most people do. but i love them just the same. one day i'm going to have my own cloud. i'll just lie down the whole day in my fluffy white cloud, staring at the wide blue sky. i'll go wherever i want, whenever i want. no more need for buses! i'll be like pataketchy of eto rangers. if you don't know the eto rangers, i'm so sorry for you. you just missed your childhood.
 

sunny day :)

after 2 hours of travel, i finally reached my destination.










sundays are actually the busiest days of my week. it's so hectic i can't even eat lunch. sunday service, cell meeting, post/pre-encounter, G12 meeting- they're all sunday events. human as i am, i get tired. but i'd never wish for sundays to obliterated. never ever ever.

1.it's the day when i am actually required to dress up. yes, that's the number one reason. haha.
2.it's when i meet all my co12s at the same time. i can hug everyone!
3.it's when i meet my cellmates. it's nice sharing happy and sad moments with them. it's nice to rush from FI to the center with them too. haha.
4. it's when i meet new people.
5. it's when the new people i meet meet the lord too.
6. it's when i get refreshed. old mindsets are torn down. i come out with new wine skins. and their for free!

this Sunday, i met Claricce :) but i forgot to take a picture with her :( we actually met each other a few sundays ago but it is only now that we bonded. we ate lunch together with chesca, kyla and pat at my favorite lutong kapitbahay. i like it mostly because of the price- 40 php with free iced tea! haha. looking forward to more sundays with these people!

as for our G12 meeting, i learned two important things:
1. G12 is a model.
2. G12 is a movement.

i'll elaborate some other time. that's enough for now.



and to end this hectic day, sisig at ate fe's with sheryl and ate ems.











this is an incoherent post, i know. it's one of the posts i'm not really proud of. waah. i am easily influenced by the things i see, hear, felt and read. the last thing i read was a translation of nissy's blog. so there, go figure. i don't know why i still like him. all he ever talked about was the weather, mosquitoes and their live concerts. maybe it's the smile. i'd rather lose my writing style than not see his smile. i am possessed as of the moment.

saturday happiness

today, i made something... i don't know what to call it. it's originally called tudi balls because of it's creator. but i want to change it because it has become a necessity to explain the name's origins every time i mention it. anyway, i'll just call it something for now



i just want to do something out of the ordinary, actually. cooking might be ordinary to you but to me, its very much a new thing. haha. however, somewhere along the way, it evolved into a family activity and finally into a business venture. my sister's selling it tomorrow. i hope everything goes well. waah.
i enjoyed cooking with my itay! :)



after that, we went to our usual spot- northern brew. we go there just because they know i lurb it there. i love my family. supportive much <3











also, i was finally able to watch ghost friends (ep1)! yey! the sad thing is, dramacrazy's download function is missing. so i can't have my own copy. oh well, at least i was still able to watch it. turns out nissy is not a ghost there. he's more of a zombie. ikr. and now he's eating my brains. need..to..move..on..earlier i also watched ouran. good effects. they really copied the anime.

furthermore. hehe. i finally thought of a challenge for myself! i would do a people blog! the idea is this: every week, i should hang out with at least two people. then i would write something about them and what we did. like cooking, this is also normal to most people but not to me. i am most comfortable when i am alone. needless to say, i don't really go out a lot and interact. and when i do, which seldom happens, i am usually too lazy to write about them leaving me with only sad memories to reminisce. now things would just have to change. by the end of this challenge...
1. my selfishness and apathy would decrease extravagantly since i will be spending more time with others.
2. i would have more stories to tell and experiences to share.
3. my writing skills would improve since i will be writing more.
4. my discipline will be tested and polished since i would have to really cut out on unnecessary things to be able to spend time with other people.
looks good to me. looking forward to this week.
another challenge: paying attention to details.
interaction is waaaay more easier than this. but i really really need to get this. i can't remain floating in space. i need to learn how to pay attention.
looks like i'd be killing my phleg side this week. omg. i'm like 50% phleg. i'd be committing suicide this week! oh well. seeds die before they grow into a tree. same with me. something has got to die before something grows. my motivation: i would be more beautiful next week! haha.

things you learn from a jdorama

still watching tumbling.

life would not be complete if you won't be able to find the place where you belong, the place that you can call your own. its where you can be yourself, its where you are happy, its where/ what you are looking forward to go/ do every single day. i want to find mine and get lost in it. i've never really experienced how it is to forget myself and be so engrossed in something. i want to. the problem is, i don't have anything i am passionate about. don't say it, i know- i'm phlegmatic. that's why until now, i haven't really been able to give my best, i haven't really been excellent.i thought i did so before. i also had my share of awards. but now i know that those awards really don't mean anything. they were not earned by hard work. i don't mean to sound arrogant but every single thing that i've accomplished before came easily. i did not really push myself to the limit for them. i think i just got lucky. now things are different. nothing's easy anymore. but i guess this is good. i've been given an opportunity to learn about the very essence of perseverance and not just its definition, a push to help me find the place i can call my own. one day i'll find something that i am passionate about. and then i'll give my everything to it. i'm so looking forward to that day

i'm no beauty queen, i'm just beautiful me

Patikul

 "It's about the people in the South; the children being deprived of having education because of the war between the military and Muslim rebels (the dreaded Abu Sayaff) while the parents do not have any choice because ayaw na ng mga teachers na magturo. So the parents united in order to defend the right of the children for education. They got teachers from Manila, para lang magtuloy-tuloy ang pag-aaral ng mga bata." -Mr. Joel Lamangan in an interview with PEP. 

Watched this last night with Francis, Chony and Deb. Puro "uwi na tayo!!!" lang nasabi ko during the first few minutes of the movie. nakakastress panuurin, grabe. and then it dawned on me, shocks, this is really what is happening. Ganito ang buhay nila doon. Ako stress na stress na dahil sa deadlines, missed deadlines at will be missed deadlines na dahil din naman sa sarili kong kagagawan. Pero ibang level stress level nila dun. Ang daming checkpoints. Dapat thoroughly scheduled talaga mga lakad, di pwedeng random lang na maisipan mong pumunta sa isang lugar pupunta ka na. Pati route mo dapat naka-plan. Walang freedom. Bigla nalang may putukan. hindi mo alam kung makakauwi pa yung hinihintay mo, o kung makakauwi ka pa. hindi mo alam kung ikaw na ba ang susunod na makikidnap, o kung tatamaan ka na ng ligaw na bala any moment. 

Oo na, bigla akong nababawan sa sarili ko. habang nag-iinarte ako dito, ganun ang dinadanas nila dun. habang wala akong ginagawa dito kundi magreklamo sa situation(s) ko at maghanap na foods, ang daming dapat gawin para lang mairaos yung simpleng pagpasok sa eskwela doon. gusto ko na ngang maging volunteer teacher kagabi eh. pero bago yun, kailangan ko muna tapusin thesis ko. hehe. paano mo matitiis na mabuhay para lang sa sarili mo kung alam mong may ganitong nangyayari? paano mo matitiis na walang gawin? paano kaya nila ginagawa? siyempre di naman ako pwedeng pumunta ng Patikul ngayon...pero at least ngayon alam ko na kung bakit talaga ako pumupunta ng prayer meeting. more than a physical battle, this is a spiritual war. Grabe na eh, di na tao gumagawa nito. di na 'to madadaan sa usapan. lalaban ako the best way i can! i am a christian and my greatest weapons- prayer and the readiness to be of use for God's answer. 

Lez do this!