went home last sunday. plan a was to go back by tuesday. however, due to the weather and because i don't want to, plan a did not work. plan b was to spend tuesday and today researching for my long delayed thesis. it didn't work either. instead, what happened was i journeyed down memory lane ( i can't think of a sentence less cliche-ish than that). i read my previous journals, my previous blog, and the blogs that i previously follwed. the experience...
1 - made me miss the rants i made about my course, my subjects, my professors, my lab reports, my papers, and even my crushes. haha. every student who owns a blog has (even at least one) a post dedicated to the stress school brings. anyway, here goes the unbelievable- i missed those rants because i miss school! not that i am not anymore in school..it's just that nowadays, i am not anymore a normal student. not having much to do is quite..i don't like it. akalain mo yun.
2 - is where the dream bug came from. it escaped from the dream-filled pages of my troubled teenage days and bit me again, thankfully.
3 - made me realize that nothing is impossible. more like remember, actually. during those days, i never thought i would survive.that's why i ranted with all the ranting capacity and passion that i have. but lookey here. despite all my wishes to become a bubble and disappear, i am still here, alive and breathing baby. i managed to get through. plus, there were also a lot of surprises which i met along the way. the hand that held me then is still holding me. the power that helped me find my way then is still working. even more so now, i dare say. hence, if i succeeded then, i will succeed now. this has been a prevailing theme. the more i repeat it, the more i understand it.
4 - gave me the push i need to jump and start another adventure.
it's good to hear from ala again. she is the ultimate source of this blog and alaism was my previous religion. haha.
LUCIA
9 years ago
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