bieber blast!

bloger seems to be filtering emo posts. typed a very long emo post. it was not published!!!! instead, it was deleted. it deleted itself. very well then, delete yourself.  emoness over, now na!

this will not be an emo post. this will be the sounding of the horns.

how i am going to arise from this rubble where i am now is out of my wits. there's gonna be a lot of drama ahead, that's for sure. but then, that's what makes it exciting, baby. for now, all i know is that i need lots and lots of moolah. my parents are very much willing to support me. but i want them to enjoy their lives too. it's time they spend what they earn for themselves. so it's also time for me to depend on myself. inhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaale. kaya ko 'to. exhale. according to my calculations, i need to earn 27k per month. 10k will go to living expenses and 17k will be saved for med school. where i am going to find a job that would provide such amount is still a mystery. plan b is to have several jobs.

so. here's the plan. rrl this weekend. experiments next week. 13and1/2 lives of captian blue bear + latte with hazelnut syrup + bigoli + movie on april 17. manuscript writing during holy week. polishing thesis + substi forms + math 55, week after holy week. should be free by may. driving lessons + job hunting + house hunting, first week of may. chem boards review, 3rd week. should have work/ works and house by july.

it also looks impossible to me. but if there's one thing i learned out of what happened, it's to never say never. *bieber blast, ha!* if i fought early, i might have won the battle. so now, i'll learn from my mistakes. it's the only thing i can get from my delinquency. so better make the most out of it. two things: maturity and a great amount of resolve. in other words, turn my weaknesses into strengths. i think i see where He is going with this. game.

i will be blogging more. everyday. every hour if need be. my journey to success should be properly documented.

the first round begins :)